sometimes it's hard to be in the christmas spirit, I loss my daughter 2 1/2 years ago and she loved christmas went all out for it. I didn't want to do holidays again but my grandkids said that wasn't fair to them. I don't spent what I don't have, but always tryed to make it fun. so I didn't give up christmas, now I have 2 greatgrandkids and they are here this year and the smiles on their faces makes it all worth while. it doesn't make the pain go away but helps me to bear it. God bless you and hope you have a good day.