Felt down yesterday and this morning. A year ago DH and I were foster parents to a beautiful 10 month old baby boy. He was drug-affected and had many, many issues but we still loved him and thought we'd be able to adopt him. Wasn't meant to be. They returned him to his drug-addict mother so that she could lose him two weeks later because of her drug use. They didn't place him back with us but instead placed him with another foster family out of the county (they said for his safety). He was adopted by that family. We still mourn the loss of our son and have since canceled our file with the county and are no longer foster parents. It was a hard day yesterday (one year ago yesterday he was taken from us) and I guess I'm still feeling sad about it today. I can only pray that DH and I will be blessed with a child of our own eventually.