I am so sorry for the loss of your little guy! I know just the feeling. Last summer I had to have my wonderful, huge, Himalayan cat put down. He was going on 21 years old and had arthritis severly. I carried him almost every where he wanted to go. I had had him for so long, it seemed he could talk. So, do not think it is silly to grieve over your baby. I too, felt like you and thought my heart would break into. Hope your Christmas is bright in knowing he is in peace now.
Sewnique