Good Morning Allie, I just read your post, it upset me to hear that you are so depressed that you don't care anymore. Well let me tell you something, put a smile on your face and say a prayer and things will get better. I am sure that you aren't alone with the depression. I get very depressed myself during the holidays, but I thank the Lord that I am alive and still able to move around a little bit, so don't you forget that there are alot of good friends on this board and if you need to talk to someone we are all here for you. If you need to talk to someone give me a call and I will be glad to talk to you. I will send you my phone # in a PM. So call me if you want to talk I will be here all day.