How sad for you but you must be brave - I'm sure he would want you to continue on with your life. I regularly check out all my local thrift shops looking for fabric and any other items I can use for quilting. They usualy have yarn if you want to tie a quilt. Also, 100% cotton mens and womens shirts and blouses can make beautiful soft colored scrappy quilts. Maybe you can collect items from your family to make a memory quilt. There are lots of areas to explore. Keep the faith.