going through it right now concerning my younger brother...and for the past 5 months...boy i've gone through ...
profound saddness, RAGING ANGER, frustration, compassion, worry...the list just goes on and on...every day...every night, it is on the mind....i do not go see him as often (as i should) but when ever i get a call i am there. sometimes its hard to talk to him...sometimes i'm ok...(dont' want to say the wrong thing)
i seem to be going through all of the stages of mourning...ahead of time...does that mean when the time is actually here i will be (over-it) and be the one holding up when everyone else is ...going through it? i don't know- i just know it's never easy no matter who it is ...
sometimes you don't have enough time...sometimes it's too much time....
it's always horrible/hard/stressful/overwhelming
thank goodness i have a full time job and quilting to give me an outlet to focus on.