A year ago in Aug I was dx with cancer of the breast in the early stages. I opted for a total mastectomy,No involvement with lymph nodes. Surgery went well and no further treatment and thought WHEW all is well. Then in Dec. (same year) My son 45 yrs old was dx with lung cancer, no cure, to far gone. He had chemo and radiation and lived until Oct 8th, 2010. I went with him and his wife to every treatment, spent every day taking care of him as his wife worked, cried, was in rage, hated what was happening and I still am a mess. Why wasn't it me instead of him. We have other children, but he was the youngest and the only boy. there is a hole in my heart that can never be fixed.