Yes, I understand your feelings. :cry: But don't give up, it is a skill that will take time. You didn't learn to write, ride a bike, or sew with skill over night and it is the same with FMQ. Make up some "sandwiches" of batting, front and back, pretty fabric or muslin, it doesn't matter, and every time you sit down at the machine take 10 or 15 minutes and practice FMQ. If you do this several times a week, you will be surprised at the progress you will make in 6 months. Don't expect perfection right away. Invest in either a pair of machine quilting gloves or use a water base hand lotion to help you help you move the fabric smoothly, and spray starch the backing. That also lets it slide easier. Another thing that helped me is doodling some of the designs you want to put on the fabric. It's a hand/eye/mind thing and once it gets into the brain it goes easier.
So please, please, don't give up, keep practicing and you will improve.