Missy, I know where you're coming from. I too wonder how/why I allowed myself to get so out of shape. Growing up I was so skinny my husband's grandfather called me BB, saying I was nothing but breath and britches. If he could see me now he would be surprised. This problem with my knee has really put things into perspective for me. I'm healing fine with it but it would be so much easier and less stress on the knee if I wasn't carrying all this excess weight around. But, I'm on the right track now, and so are you. With lots of encouragement, motivation, perseverence and determination we CAN and WILL get this excess weight off.