I am so sorry about your loss. I know that it is still really hard on you. I lost my mom 3 years ago this past Tuesday and it still seems like yesterday. That doesn't even compare to what you are going through. I hope you have a really good support group where you live. Someone that you can talk to, cry on their shoulder, or to just to have the company. If you don't, I want you to know that I am here so don't hesitate to pm me. I'm an ex cop so anything said will be confidential. As to not being able to buy more fabric and waiting on someone who said they were going to "give you some fabric they are getting rid of", I'm in the same boat you are in. What I have is all I get. And the friend that is suppose to "give me some fabric"? I've been waiting over a year.