Bonnie,
I can't say I'm sorry enough, this is horrible. For the life of me I can't understand people doing these inhuman acts, surely they don't think they can get away with this! Obviously this man was a good person. Take your time to grieve as you must. Also this group is here for you, preparing for your swaps are a good way to let your mind heal. I have so much going on here and this anxiety is no help at all! It may sound silly to a lot of people but I am very thankful for this group to be able to come to, even if it's just to exchange patterns and a smile or two. It helps more than one knows. My sympathy goes out to you and his family. God help those that done this!! They will pay dearly!