I've tried getting involved in two different guilds. The first one was really close to where I live and the other is about 36 miles from me. These two guilds made me feel like I wasn't good enough to belong. I would try to get involved but it was like I was in high school all over again. I was very uncomfortable. I don't leave the house any more except for doctors appointments. I guess I have gotten to the point where I am afraid of rejection.