Hello, and welcome from Michigan! Sounds as if your family is VERY motivating, not just for themselves, but for you, to regain a part of yourself that YOU think you lost--I think you'll find it isn't lost, just not quite within your grasp yet. Keep working in the ways that you can and it will come back or you'll find a new way to do it. When I first started quilting, someone told me that we don't make mistakes; we have learning experiences, so that's what I try to remember when things are difficult. (It now is a family thing to view things differently & not just in sewing!)