Have you washed your table runner yet? It is really amazing how different your quilting will look after it has been tumbled a bit - - maybe not even to wash it, just put it in the dryer for a bit.
For your first FMQ attempt, I think you did really good, and you need to give yourself credit for doing something better today than you did it yesterday.
The more you FMQ, the better at it you will become - - and, the more creative you will find yourself to be.
Be kind to yourself, young quilter, and work on another project - - you and your world will be a better place for your perseverence ;-) <wave>