Jeananne, dont know about you cutter but I read your post the other night and I just wanted to tell you Im sorry for loss .... I know how lonley it gets... I lost a husband 4 years ago and it was so long before I got over that feeling, but I had a dear friend who said come on lets quilt .... it was wonderful to get lost in a quilt.... that first year bet I made and gave away 20 quilts, wall hangings, and tablerunners ..... it gets better and I have been extreamly lucky and am now with a wonderful man .... he doesnt take the place of Benny but he sure is a great guy and I love him for being him .... you just remember quilting is theropy.... it really works.... love and hugs to you.