Long time ago, at the suggestion of a friend, I sewed together fabric rectangles. I didn't know what a quilt was or was supposed to look like. My kids loved it and so did the dogs. Are you making quilts to be perfect (impossible) or to have fun? So relax, you seem do be doing so well. Make something small, go to bed and during the night the quilt fairie will come, sprinkle some magic dust on it and it will be bautiful in the morning. Try it!