I too am SO proud of you. Why do we fear our mothers so?? I am better but still hard at times. Now mine has alzheimers or dementia, (she refuses help for a correct diagnosis) and thinks I don't love her anymore because I dared move away to another state to fulfill a dream my husband had had since we married in 1978. My husband's dream over time actually became my dream too. It was really nasty when I dared to want to get married and leave her, let alone then moving out of state later. Thanks for letting me vent today.....