Having gone through 4 family deaths in the past 4 years (one being my 28 year old son) I would tell you "baby steps". Don't be hard on yourself, be as kind as you can. Life itself right now is hard enough. None of this is easy, and who knows why we have to go through it?--but we do. If you can get out in any way--week ends, after work, whenever force yourself out that door for a little while. Try to get into the sunshine as often as possible so that you can also remember your blessings. One of which is the people on this board who will pray for you.