I am sorry for your loss.
You may have more healing going on than you realize, but it is our love of life and living that makes the loss of a loved one such a burden.
If it is any comfort, the testimony that I have received from many survivors is: there is comfort in wrapping up in a quilt their loved one either owned or designed.
Our memories are sort of God's gift of solace - - so much of who we are is wrapped up in those who influenced us along the way. We should never have to apologize for loving the memories almost as much as we loved the person who helped create them. this quilt is the evidence that your husband was as interested in what you were doing as you are. A very special gift, indeed <wave>