GaiGai, you are too hard on yourself. I love to piece and this is why I hand quilt. I can control everything. Bring it to retreat but whatever you do, don't stop trying. It's a challenge. Put is aside and do something else. If you want, bring it to retreat. I have a good "reverser", this is what I call my seam ripper. The Reverser. LOL Sending you hugs. I may have to make you a Dammit doll and send it to you. It works well. ROFL