I am so sorry you feel like that about going to your guild. I used to, but that was before I joined mine. There are a few kindred spirits in the bunch and we tend to hang together. Don't pay any attention to those old bitties that are afraid of something new. Keep at it, and keep doing it for your love of quilting. Is there a chance you could get some of your quilting buddies to join? New membership is a great place to start making changes. Good luck to you. I hope it gets better.