I feel your pain.. I lost both my parents this year. Mom,88 in April.. she taught me to sew, and my Dad 97, Nov. 12.. on my birthday. I want to wrap my arms around her old sewing machine, but can't get it where I live yet. I was blessed to have them so long... but back to you.. This will be emotional for you... You have lots of helpers out here for ideas & support.. use them and reach out to us as you go. Decide on the day you are going to start... get up early, shower, have a healthy breakfast for energy, a strong cup of coffee, kneenx and advil... and start your day with your Mom and talk to her.. she'll help too. You will feel really good about yourself. Maybe only 2 hours at a time.. but you have to make that first step. Keep us posted.. Good luck and God bless you. d