Welcome Sing a long,
I don't blame you for giving up on that pattern. I have been quilting 40 years and I wouldn't make it. About 15 years ago our guild did a mystery quilt. I knew what magazine they were getting the directions from and peeked ahead. When I saw what the finished product was going to be that very pattern I stopped cutting up my fabric and made up my own pattern. I don't need that kind of stress. My quilt didn't look like anyone else's but it was finished, quilted and bound at the end of the time period alloted. Most of the others managed to complete the top. I don't think any of them enjoyed the process.
Don't get discouraged. Make a simpler pattern or just one block with several borders to make a small hanging or even a pillow. Use the rest of the fabric for something else.