So sorry about the loss of your dad. It is a hard thing to get through for sure and I think we do look for things to do with our hands while going through the grief. It may not always work out because our concentration is not good. When I lost my dad it was summer time and I ended up doing a lot of canning. I made lots of salsa. We never ate a bite of it but it did keep me busy.Hang in there. It will get better.