I cried also. Two years later I just had a clear Mamo. Now down to one a year. I had two lumpectomys for two different spots. Got a clear field, no lympnodes involved, and had 6 weeks of radiation. Try to keep the faith. Listen to your Doctors and what your body tells you. Think positive thoughts, they seem to help. The big elephant sitting in the room will eventually get smaller but never seems to go completely away. Thinking of you.