Originally Posted by cjomomma
Originally Posted by trupeach1
Thank you all for your support with my shitty life and for the prayers for Elizabeth.
Tru your breaking my heart here. Please stop being so hard on yourself. It's not your fault the dumbass is such a jerk. You are a wonderful person and I love you just the way you are. The right person for you will come along eventually. Good things come to those wait.
Oh Carrie it is not the dumbass andyou are wrong no one will ever come my way. It is the fact that I can't go in a car to go anywhere or met anyone. And who would really want someone like me? People are in wheelchairs or have other disabilities or illnesses and can still go out. I have perfect health, except I can't go in a car because of the motor. I was deaf for 4 months and the doctors never thought I would get the hearing back I won't take the chance of that happening again. My daughter almost died and I couldn't get to the hospital. I never once got to see Joyce in a dance recital or play softball and she was so great she was on a traveling team. I never got to see Jim play softball or in a school concert or anything else moms are suppose to attend. I should have had surgery over a year ago, cancer runs in my family. I wouldn't have it. I will never get any medical treatment for myself and my kids know it. They have instructions to NEVER EVER call 911 if they think I am having a heart attack or anything. They know if they did and I lived they will be taken out of my will. I welcome death with open arms. My uncle died I so wish it would have been me.
If anyone would like to know more about my disability google Tullio Phenomenon