Honestly it will always look worse to your own critical eyes. Over time you will be very happy you went to the effort and now have a quilt. My friend once told me that we may as well practice FMQ on a quilt and have a finished product. That way we can look at each quilt as a learning piece and what stage we were at then. Really - you will come to love that camping quilt. Be very pleased you have learnt so much and have a beautiful quilt to show for it! We are too tough on ourselves. Be kind to yourself. Lots of people don't even attempt FMQ.