I can relate to you sooo much. My husband died 10 years ago this Sept. A very close friend of mine sat me down in front of a sewing machine and started me on my way to quilting which was what saved me. I was in such a bad shape that I would not answer phone calls, the door or anything. I would send my kids on to school and just sit in a chair for hours at a time just starring at a wall. This close friend of mine had been through the same thing and knew what I was doing. She came to me and would just let me cry for as long as I needed. I would just get it all out and then she helped me cut out fabric and now my love of quilting "saved" me. Then about 4 years after his death I gave my life to the Lord which is really what "saved" me. I have to be the happiest woman in the world right now. I have the Lord, two wonderful children and now my husband of almost 4 years now when I thought my life was over after my first husband died. Now, these quilts are sooooo beautiful. I only wish that I could do this. Maybe some day I will. I had to share this with you, only hope it hasn't bored you.