Oh , sweetie. I know just how you feel. I was an army brat , so when my hubby deployed, I knew I could handle it. But I was pregnant with our first . And far from my family. It is tough. But you can do it. Try to join the wives club or something so you don't feel so alone. I cried for a wk .one time. But ,I finally got myself under control. At least you have the children with you. Our DD is currently in AF. Some days I cry for her. It is tough.