Oh my, so sorry hear of your misery. Are you trying to quilt to sell them and make some extra income? I'm new to quilting and just sorta messing around at this point. I see such beautiful stuff and some real "works-of-art" and I don't think I have to talent, patience, time , etc to ever do that kind of quilting. But I keep at it because for me it's just enjoyable and relaxing. Such a shame that most of us are loving it and do it for pleasure and there you are having a terrible time. Wish I could help you feel better. Go ahead and vent some more if it helps! Sending good, happy wishes your way for better times ahead!