O.K. you have vented! Get ahold of yourself. You maybe are trying to do too much! Take a deep breath! Sometimes we are inpatient. Everything takes time. I know that I would hurry up and do things and it would not come out right. Slow down! If you were to take a job outside the home, I know that then you would want to be quilting. Back away for a while, mayble a month and then go back. Do not start selling off your stash or machines!!!