don't give up, sorry to hear this is so frustrating, do you have a friend that you could ask to help, or maybe take some basic quilting classes, I have been quilting for 30 years and I still get frustrated, I have never taken a class that I did not learn something new, also there are lots of great tutorials on this site. never feel bad about asking a quilter to help you out or give you suggestions, we love to help, and never want to see a fellow quilter give up. We all have problems, I think you must b too hard on yourself