I went almost two years with out so much as lifting a piece of fabric... I knew I would get there again, I just had to step away for a while. OK... a long while. Don't beat yourself up. You'll use it... and you'll use it all and then some. It's not a job that you have to do everyday to make it valuable, it's your hobby and you do it when you wannt to.. again, not because you have to. Sit back. Its ok, really. Hugs, Mona