Radiana, i can certainly identify with your story. since we moved here 8 years ago i have made 1 friend. i am a naturally gregarious person, a little loud at times and sometimes the clown. evidently not traits they find interesting. my husband feels guilty because he engineered the move and that"made me unhappy". so he buys me cookies he thinks i would like and ice cream and pastries, i'm sure you get the picture. add to that i have developed some medical problems and most of my life is lived from bed. fortunately, the kitchen is walking distance away. until i found this board my only friends were the few i left in our previous town, all waiting patiently, and not so, for us to return. don't think that's going to happen. i've started to feel part of this online community and i really like it. we may not be face to face friends, but there is a bond here. real people talking to real people about real life. when mj suggested i join in here i felt it was an offer of friendship and i accepted. i'm tired of waddling into lane bryant and fashion bug. i want to go to the regular misses department and buy a dress, or better yet, pants. i want to lose my armor of fat now and start making friends again,if possible. and i'm tired of my husband's guilt trip, altho' it's well deserved, and i'm tired of being angry about his decision. and i'm tired of him feeding me goodies so i'll stop moping, or be a good puppy and be quiet, and go lie down. well, i may be tired of it, but i'm obviously not ready to let it go yet. sorry. but it's time i do something positive! quilting is good. making friends on board is good. and losing weight is very good! so thanks for letting me in and including me! i can't wait to win the fat quarters! let's see that's at least 56 of them! see, radiana, i do know what you're talking about. hang in there with me! we can encourage each other to keep up the good fight and win!!!