Old 06-05-2011, 10:41 PM
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Xylie55
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Originally Posted by MissyGirl
Originally Posted by nancia
i see why everyone was upset not to have heard from you. you are amazing! i'd proudly walk next to you on your journey. i know the surgery is no easy fix. 2 of my best friends have had it done, both were successful in losing the weight but it was definitely tough. one was my best friend from hi school. she died 2 weeks ago from a heart attack while getting chemotherapy. i am so glad you've taken control of your life, and even tho' we're "new" friends, i'm with you, and i appreciate your telling your story and your support. best of the best, missy!
xylie, i 'm so sorry your step=daughter couldn't connect with us. we're not miracle workers, but i do think the positive power of love and caring has an effect. sorry for your pain and loss, nanci
Amazing? Wow. I would never have thought of myself that way. I just simply think of me being me. I have not had an easy time in this life but things are rolling in a great way for me now. I feel so thankful that my life has been spared to this point so that I could change my life and get healthy.

I know that God has rewarded me for my work by bringing my girlfriend Cathie into my life. She is incredible and truly is my soul mate and I could not imagine my life without her in it. I am seeing clearly that at different points on my journey I am finding rewards and gifts from God. I believe that we all have that available to us as we travel down our highways in life.

I think that people imagine that when you are almost 500 pounds that you smell and are a slovenly person that eats nonstop all day long. Not true. I also have heard people say to my face that I am disgusting because of my hanging belly or my huge butt. I might be disgusting to them but to those that know me and love me, I am beautiful. When I look in the mirror I see cheekbones now and I see dimples and I can really see my eyes that change colors. I love what I see now. Not because I have the body of a supermodel but because I know that there is joy in the journey and whether I goof up at a meal or I don't go to the gym I am still so happy to be on this journey. I am so thankful that my surgeon set concrete goals for me before he would do the surgery. I am so thankful that for the first time in 10 years I am wearing a size 4X in pants instead of the 7X I was wearing 3 months ago. I am SO excited that I can wear real athletic shoes with socks and I do not need any help getting them on and tied. I can fasten my own bra. I can clean myself. I can do my hair and look pretty. I can put on my make up and love what I see. I can stand up and wash dishes now instead of dragging a chair up to the sink. I can drive my car. I am no longer in a wheelchair. I can walk without a walker. I can go downstairs to our basement and walk back upstairs without taking a break and many more things.

Anyway...I got off track. I would love to hear what some of you are able to do now that you could not do or could not do easily since you started on your journeys.

I hope you have a great night! :)

Missy
Well,you go girl.Those poor souls are miserable in their own lives.It boomeranged right back at them,didn't it!Your happy and no matter what they do or say,they can NOT rain on your parade.I'd look at them real comassionatly and ask 'what happened?'
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