Thanks for sharing with us. My heart goes out to you. My son is bi polar. The manic phase is frightening (He thinks he is invincible) but I think the depressed phase is more frightening. You have given voice to my biggest fear. We watch him and regulate his meds. I hope it's enough. I send a big ((((((((((((((((hug))))))))))))))))))) your way. My prayers are with you.