Jeanne,
Look around you and find a focus. Make a small wallhanging reflecting your deepest feelings. If you want it to be sunny, make a unique sunflower. Find something today that requires your intensity. That is the only natural way I know of to be debilitating depression. I was frozen most of the winter, not by cold, but by depression. Making myself make contact daily with this group is a lot of what pulled me through.
We are counting on you to be here for us. Focus for a little while and then come back and tell me what is was about.
Hugs,
MJ