Lea, dear:
If you started out "perfect", where would you go from there? I am a great fan of Charisma, but I bet she would say you are doing great and I say that too. I am one so uncoordinated I can't ride a bike, or skate, or dance..... and I don't machine quilt as I can hardly stitch in the ditch, but, I make tops and hand quilt (not super good) but my quilts are loved and appreciated. I understand your desire to do well, and I applaud your endeavors, but please be patient with your self, and let your 'Ability' grow, and your 'Want-To' will be realized sooner or later. I send you my support of love and blessings. ;) :)