It sounds a little strange I'm sure, but one of the blessings I discovered during a year of debilitating chemo and radiation was the peace of not being in the rat race. I had to relinquish control of just about everything. I didn't make a "bucket list", but I do try to prioritize. Sometimes a clean house is just not as highly rated as those "flowers."
I pray for recovery and peace for you.....and lots of "flowers."