I was married to my best friend for 35 years. We fussed and fought but we worked hard on our relationship. Joe brought me flowers every week until he could no longer leave the house...after that, he called the local florist. We took time for each other always having a "date night". The kids loved that and now are doing the same with their wives. We were both "Type A" personalities so we did disagree often but we smiled a lot as well and laughed at ourselves over our behavior. We saw friends divorce and it was terrifying to both of us. We always hoped and prayed it wouldn't ever end for us. I think that helped us keep an eye of what was important in our relationship. I loved him more every day and he felt the same. I hope you are as lucky as we were. I miss him but still feel his love all around me.