the trouble with having love is it comes with the fear of losing it. i love my husband , too, and faced his very probable death due to cancer. it's terrifying! but he has made it, and by the time you read this your husband will have made it through the day as well. faith is believing in things you can not prove, or see in a physical sense, like the existence of a higher power. but have faith that your husband will be safe and that life will go as it is supposed to. and that your husband is meant to be there with you and izzy to watch her grow. wish you the best!