so sorry for the loss of your DSIL. We never un-love, but I have learned that in time the pain does lessen, and it is those memories, and the knowing she is in a better place and out of pain, that will see you through. Yes, there are many things, that will happen, like a bird landing or singing, that will let you know, she misses you too, but in a happy way. There are no more tears where she is, but we have to cry here, to wash away our pain and heal. hugs.