Keep dreaming, you'll get there. Last summer I was working full time and trying to sew when I could; I lived more than 1 hr away from work so spent a lot time in traffic. In August I had a stroke & heart attack; spent 10 days in hospital; another 8 in a "nursing type home"; THEN I went to live with DD & SIL in another state to "heal".....finally got settled, got sewing machine set up in my room AND HEALED very well ! ALL this to say is that chaos doesn't end eventually and your life will settle down. I've since moved back to my home state in a small apt and I get to sew a little each day.
Take one day at a time....which is great advice from someone that has a hard time listening to same advice....
Enjoy GD......keep us updated.