Hang in there... this is not a particularly happy time... but it does get better... Keep in touch with him... pray... stay busy...
If the blueness doesn't change significantly in a few weeks, please, please, please get professional help? A visit to your doctor would definitely be in order. You have a lot to think about, it sounds like, with a lot of various responsibilities... so what you are feeling is very normal... please remember that?
Many of us have been where you are...
Keep in touch with us too??