how about prozac? j/k
relax, practice on scrap "sandwiches". that's what I did- I like everything structured, always did stitch in the ditch. first efforts of FMQ were structured- like I was trying to copy what is in the books. Once I unclenched my fists and wiped the tears of frustration and loosened the tension in my shoulders, I sat down, said the heck with this, it's supposed to be fun, off I went.
Now I twirl and swirl and zip along. It's fun and fast. Give it another try. Smile as you are doing it.
(I remember my nephew saying how he looks for shapes in it, he thought he saw a dinosaur in one baby quilt).