Just reread your message cause I was thinking about you when I found my painted pony pattern last night. I lost my parents in 2008 and 2010 and I miss them terribly. But when I sit down to aork on my quilts and crafts and I get stuck I sometimes get that little nudge of inspiration that I know comes from them and am thankful for the creativity they gave me. Take care of yourself healthwise and keep the good memories close and you will survive. Peace