First off Jill, I am so sorry about your sister.
Second Dreamer, I agree with Lisanne - find the do-over you can still do today so that in the future, you can look in the mirror and feel loved and worthy. There is still time!
As for my do-over, I would have worked harder at school and gone farther with my education. I would not change my personal choices (even though I made some dooseys - Never NEVER date a man who nicknames himself "Merlin!")If I changed the bad choices, I would not be here now, with two beautiful sons and a husband who really loves me. So I accept the bad choices and the things I could not control because they are all part of the journey that has led me here. And despite the fact I don't wear a size 8 and drive a 1969 Mustang, here is still pretty darned good!