MJ, in therory I agree with you on the goal of health instead of weight or size, but my mental health depends on a certain size. Being overweight is depressing to me. Hate to blame my ills on my mother, but if the shoe fits...... My father's sisters were tall and slim until they were 18, then their weight skyrocketing to well over 300. It happened to them and to their daughters, my cousins. My mother did not want to see it happen to me as I was tall like my aunts, so she watched my weight like a hawk, probably to the point of obsession. What's imprinted in our early years is hard to change. So it's important ot me to fit in the smallest pants I own. Then I'm done. No new wardrobe wanted.
I stopped at the fabric store for 1/2 yard of a batik. It was gone, but there were hundreds of yards of beautiful fabrics at half price. One purple and orange line caught my eye, but I didn't get any. Then a Moda bright on black line , then a .....
I'm going out and pick rhubarb and make a cake. It's so pretty. Strawberry jello and marshmallows in the up side down glaze.
Keep drinking. It's harder to remember with the weather cooling off.