Thanks for the replies... I'm keeping busy. Cleaning and quilting, visiting the horses and giving extra attention to Shimano. Part of me is relieved after worrying so for 14 months... part of me is so sad in missing seeing her here... part of me is so very grateful she was our responsibility for her earthly life. I have so many memories. The degree I'm feeling each one varies though out the day. Typical grieving pattern I guess.