Merry Christmas to you! I would of been dancing a jig in the store! I am so glad it lifted your spirits. Remember we are not all alone, this year has been a tough one for many people, even though all reports say sales are up I am sure there are going to be many families going without this year. I too, have been really down, it's been a rough year, financially, mentally and physically but I'm getting there just like you will. In many ways this board has helped me, the stories, pictures but most of all the friendship and camaraderie. it's not the gift but the thought behind it. Maybe you could sit down and write each of them a letter about how much they mean to you, or a note with a lighthearted story of something that happened when they were young--bake them some of their favorite Christmas cookies and send them. Your kids and g-kids are going to love you no matter what, they will not hold against you, nor will they probably even remember the yr. they did not get gifts from you! Smile, keep your chin up and remember that your family loves you and many people care for you! Now... have you tried out your new Christmas present yet?